Today, it finally marks the end of the first week of school. I’m not sure to describe it as fast or slow. The weekend seemed so far away when I returned to school on Monday and now, it’s Friday night, going to move on to the weekend. I think I’ll briefly talk about my days at school for this week.
23 June 2008
First day of school, I had a bad feeling about it. As mentioned on Sunday, I didn’t finish all my work. In the end, Miss Krishnan was appalled, just the way she put it. I guess I deserve that. Not doing the summaries means not doing the whole paper 2. So, I had my hands up for all the papers. Yes, I felt guilty and sorry for Miss Krishnan and the people who did the work. I mean, Miss Krishnan is a good English teacher. She puts in a lot of effort to help us and I think he methods are very useful. But I was such a disappointment. So, after school, I told myself that I must finish up the work by the next day, no matter what.
After school, I went to Sengkang library to complete a comprehension and some summaries. I finished 2 storylines until 19:45 out and went home. After showering, I managed to finish my Geography essay on GM at 22:30. I went to bed at 23:30 and woke up at 04:00 the next morning to finish up all the storylines. Oh wells.
24 June 2008
Second day of school, I was glad that I finished all the storylines. In the end, we didn’t need it. :X That’s okay. At least I don’t need to do it next time. Social studies lesson turned out to be better than expected. The smiley and cheerful Miss Lo is back and I love the jokes in class as we learned about Venice as a great city-state in the past.
After school, we had to go for the photo taking for the Student Council and PH Times. The Student Council one took rather long. We had to put on ties and blazers as the ex-Executive Committee and stand under the scorching sun up above. The sunlight was pretty glaring too. It makes me wonder why they chose to take the photographs at that hour, and out in the open. The PH Times photo shoot was FAST. I ran there, posed for 2 shots and it was over.
25 June 2008
Third day of school and I could feel the lethargy. I guess it was due to overworking and the lack of sufficient rest. I just made use of free time to try to complete some assignments. I really don’t wish to disappoint any teachers anymore. I looked for Miss Lo after school to ask her about the Source-Based Questions (SBQs) that were given as homework. The cartoon was so difficult to infer, for me at least. With so little understanding about Venice, it was even tougher. Thank goodness after consulting her, I understood much more! (: And I also realised that I wasn’t totally wrong too. 
So, I finished up all the questions before heading home.
26 June 2008
Forth day of school… Thursday. I was afraid that I can’t survive the Biology marathon at the end of the day. 2 hours and 30 minutes of Biology lesson. It was so LONGGGGGGG… But it wasn’t too bad when we started revising the chapters taught last year. I was quite surprised that I could select the information from my brain. It was kind of fun actually. There was also a new Biology teacher that joined our class, Miss Tan.
After school, I had lunch with Dory and her mom. Her mom was really nice. (: Then we studied together. I intended to go home earlier to do some work, but I didn’t manage to do it. :X
27 June 2008
Today! Friday, finally. We had PE! I like PE cause it’s the only lesson that I can relax a bit and vent everything in sports. I played badminton with Gena and it was a great game. On Fridays, we are suppose to have a longer recess. It turned out to be.. not exactly long.
After recess was 2 periods of PHYSICS. Zomg. Physics really really puts me to sleep! I didn’t sleep though. We were learning electromagnetism, d.c. motor and a.c. (something). I didn’t quite understand it and was spamming Mr Tong with questions! I guess that was the thing that was keeping me awake. :X
When lessons FINALLY ended, I fell asleep while waiting for Shi Min to ask Mr Tong some questions. I waited cause she said we’re studying together at Compass Point. When I woke up 20 minutes later, Mr Tong had left the class. I was wondering what we were waiting for. Then Shi Min told me that she isn’t going to study with me anymore and is heading home. All of them were heading home. I was like… I waited for nothing.
I was also curious why Dory didn’t look for me at my class. I walked over to her class without a word and found out that she left the class already cause she was upset. So, I tried asking around for her and Chin Yi told me that Dory had left the school. Feeling a little fooled, I walked out of the school and called her. She told me that she was walking home already. She was suppose to study with me. >< So, I was left alone and headed for the LRT station.
When I reached the platform, the train just arrived but I couldn’t board it as it was too crowded. That aggravated my sadness. I sat on the bench to wait for the next train. Some people came over and it really makes me sick. I don’t like the presence of those people. I just felt like running away. But I called Shi Min and she told me she just left the class and they will be leaving the school. So, I told her that I’ll just wait for her at the LRT station.
4 trains came and left. I felt like boarding the train when the first one came. It made me wonder why I told Shi Min I’ll wait. But I just waited. I waited for too long and I was feeling really really weird to be at that place alone. I didn’t like the feeling at all. I called Shi Min again and couldn’t reach her. When she called back, she was like, ‘Don’t tell me you’re still waiting for us at the LRT station.’ I was like, ‘Duh?!’ Like, of course I’m still there! I told you I’ll be waiting for you! You thought I was kidding? Then she said, ‘Oh no. We;ve decided to take the bus. I forgot you’re waiting for us. It’s faster for us by bus anyway.’ I was feeling terrible! I was already upset and this one really made me cry (but I held back the tears of course). I went like.. ‘Oh my f-ing (use of the ‘f’ word is totally rare for me and I use it when things reaches its limit) god! I’ve been waiting and 4 trains have came and left!’ She apologised but I didn’t want to talk anymore. I just said goodbye to her.
I felt like a TOTAL FOOL today. I should’ve boarded the train!! I wasted so much time. Why did I even offered to wait? Cause I was silly and stupid. These stuff really spoilt my mood the WHOLE DAY. I wanted to wait for them as I thought maybe not taking the train alone will help me. But I was wrong. Offering to wait for them had led to an even worst mood.
Another thing that makes me wonder, since morning, is… What’s wrong with people these days?? Pissed with me? Upset with me? Or what? What the hell did I do? Not inviting you for my birthday? Come on! I can’t believe you guys, my ’supposedly’ FRIENDS will be so cold towards me for not inviting you! I can understand if you’re my best friend and I didn’t invite you. But, that’s not the case. :l I can’t possibly invite everyone I know! Mom limited the number to 10 and I had 15. Adding one doesn’t make a difference? If everyone says that to me, doesn’t that make a difference??
I really can’t believe what I’m facing these days. I said ‘hi’ and no one gives a damn. I wave to you, you ignore me. You ain’t talking to me and pretend I’m invisible. Are you guys REALLY my friends? Thank you so much for making me reconsider it. It really makes me feel like being alone than watch all these happen in front of me. Just stop it.
Now, it makes me feel like saying this so much: I LOVE YOU, NATALIA, JAKE and GREGORY!!
Tomorrow is the dragon boat race! 08:00 at Bedok Reservoir. That’s so early. Think I can catch up with more sleep on the bus. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.
lots of love,
jaslyn . huishan
I’m actually here to thank people. haha. All the presents and wishes!! 
Ranked first on the ‘overseas friends’ list’. 