Well, I guess this phrase from the song ‘What Are Words’ suits what I’ve been feeling. Sometimes, people around me just don’t seem to mean what they say. They tend to cancel out on me last minute. But I wished they’ve put themselves in my shoes before.

And lately, I feel that I’ve been thrown around by a good friend of mine. I don’t know what’s going on, but maybe I’m no longer his/her good friend anymore. I mean, you involve me when you want to, then you just exclude me when you want to. Then you don’t share your problems with me when I ask. Oh wells, hope it’s just temporary.

I don’t seem to say or show it (enough), but yes, I’m upset by all these throwing me around and ps-ing crap.

So, here it goes… I know it’s not me who started it, but after all, I’m involved in a way. I feel that I’ve been upsetting someone even though I didn’t do it intentionally. It’s actually opposite of what I want to do. I’ve been trying very hard to make it better, but it don’t seem to be working. It just happens that there are ‘event’s in the way that cause the whole effort to have gone to waste.

So, what can I do to make it better? I don’t know how else to make it work.

Jaslyn.